Day 1 of the 44 day thing.
I knew I wanted to do something for 44 days to honor my 44th birthday in the year 2022. It feels significant.
Or rather, I want to make it significant.
That humans can create meaning is a pretty unique and fun game.
So, here goes.
I’m scheduled to launch this website today.
I feel nervous and kind of relieved.
This whole business thing is not what I thought it would be.
I was so FULL of belief in ease and flow that I imagined this would be a simple jump from prosperous midwife to prosperous Tantrika. I love my 2020 self. So full of courage and innocence and faith!
I wouldn’t trade the journey, though. If I could go back to 2020 and snap my fingers and give her the realization of her dream.
It’s tricky that I had to start a business to create my dream. I fought that hard for the past 2 years. There HAS to be another way!!
And then I surrendered to it. To the point I almost completely gave it up.
And of course then in a matter of days things began to unfold to get this website where and how I wanted it and it immediately began attracting clients before I even launched it.
I still believe in ease and flow. And I’ve learned that a huge part of that is not becoming attached to outcomes. There’s a big surprising piece around boundaries and discipline in there that I have learned as well.
It’s not over. Abraham Hicks says You’re never done and you can’t get it wrong.
I know this website will be a thing I get to play with and change a lot. A canvas of sorts.
Just like my 44 days. Of what? Not sure.
Next step into the mystery.