I sat in the dark for months, like a dormant seed
in my comfy shell
Sometimes burdened by the lack of productivity.
But it would pass and I was grateful
for the time to just be me
to plumb my depths and learn who I was.
A content little cosmos
Then the swelling started
Elements rushed in
Delicious water and nourishment
Ecstatic Expansion and Love and
something that felt like movement and progress
This is what I am: Bigger, Better, Juicier
A GIANT SEED!
Yes! I can do THIS!
Then there was this hum of change that felt terrifying
and a little exciting.
I rode the vibration for weeks, determined to hold on
to the progress I had made.
The Seed Split
And, horror of horrors,
The dark things I had sat with and learned to love
Began to expose themselves to the outside
And whatever that swollen seed was is gone,
I don’t know what I am
Can I align myself to the field of Trust
open to the nutrients surrounding me
allow the old identity of seed to fall away
and let life unfold through me?